Do our beliefs inspire a need for specialness? The answer to this question is a resounding “YES!”
To begin a process of recognition that our beliefs do not necessarily translate to what truth actually is, read the following quote from ACIM: No belief is neutral. Every one [of your beliefs] has the power to dictate each decision you make. For a decision is a conclusion based on everything that you believe.
As I jot this down, my memory goes to my own spiritual journey and an awareness that I believed my one basic occupational purpose as an ordained minister had always been to impart to those listening the sum total of my spiritual beliefs at any given time. Through the years, however, my beliefs, which I thought were steadily reaching toward a high level, also had something to do with my perceived ability to teach at higher and higher levels of truth. I thought I was the harbinger of truth because of my being especially ordained by God. In other words, I was demonstrating through my spoken words a belief that I was delivering the truth with more and more efficacy. I believed that what I had achieved was a greater level of understanding. Isn’t that special?
So, how is it I made the transition from specialness to a sense of oneness with others? It was through my decision to be more devoted to my study of ACIM. Over time, my perceptions changed so that I no longer wished for specialness in my spiritual life. Rather, I moved into a quiet certainty that my preference was to join with others, and that the ‘spiritual brilliance’ I sought for myself could only become something in me through first seeing it in them.
Does this mean that we stop talking about our beliefs? Of course not, because it is one of the ways we communicate, but it does mean that before we start preaching, we begin by placing our gifts of speech at the disposal of another Teacher. At that point we are giving up our need to be special in favor of focusing on our only job, which is that of being a Communicator for the Holy Spirit; the Voice for God in us. It is only then we become a Teacher of God in truth, understanding that everyone whose gaze we meet is equally a Teacher of God in truth as well.
To close, the following quote from ACIM encapsulates the ideas contained in this blog: I rule my mind, which I alone must rule…It seems to triumph over me, and tell me what to think and what to do and feel. And yet it has been given me to serve whatever purpose I perceive in it…Today I give its service to the Holy Spirit to employ as He sees fit. I thus direct my mind, which I alone can rule. And thus I set it free to do the Will of God. This takes out our need for specialness (that we know the truth) and replaces it with allowing the Holy Spirit to guide our true path.